Another late night post
Feeling agitated tonight, got done with some clothes folding and this and that and found myself a victim of insomnia again.
A general uneasyness seems to loom like a storm coming in. I am not sure what exactly it might be. I have my theories - the collective anguish of all of us struggling to get by? I am thankful I work a job where I love what I do, but it’s shitty to see my paycheck whisk away in a flurry of bills and various this-and-thats. But honestly that’s not the cause of the looming ominous feeling.
I dunno, just feels like something bad is about the happen or something. Like I’m (we’re) waiting for something, all of us. None of us quite know what it is but we’re all waiting for the same thing, like a big storm. That anxiety of “Stormwatching” has got us twisted into day-by-day roles, chores, activities.
This weekend should prove to be a nice break, as Josie and I are heading off to celebrate our 1 year anniversary. Not a huge to-do mind you, just a trip to Boston, a dinner, maybe a museum. It will be good to get away with her to look outside at this world we live in for even a few hours. It will be good to devote some time to just she and I which is something we as parents rarely have a chance to do.
Next weekend I’m headed back to the mountains of western PA again to see some old friends. The fresh mountain air and some cold beers and conversation with guys I know and respect will surely help my present uneasiness I’m sure. It always has.
In the meantime, the storm cloud looms. I’m sure it’s here for a reason, and like all storms it will truck on past us and we’ll be left with a realization which we did not have before.
